Thank you so much for wanting to be a Featured Guest on the blog, Carmyn! Your testimony will speak to many. May you feel God’s blessing for boasting in your weakness, leaning on Him in transition, and helping others feel that they can do the same!
Author: Carmyn Parker
At twenty weeks pregnant I took a glucose test. Either way the test came out I was determined to get healthier anyway! Although I was overweight for my height, I never dreamed I could get diabetes, until I received the phone call from my doctor confirming I had developed gestational diabetes. I was told the reason I had gestational diabetes was because my BMI (body mass index) was too high. I thought to myself, ‘How could I ever get to this point?’ After all the years cheerleading, playing soccer, and running, ‘How did I allow myself to become so unhealthy?’ Then, I remembered what I forced myself to forget, depression.
I suffered severe depression for many years after my athletic years (High school). I didn’t care what I looked liked or what I ate. I really stopped caring about everything I used to love including exercise and eating healthy. However, during the moment I found out I had gestational diabetes, I remembered. I was determined that after my pregnancy was over, I was going to fight DEPRESSION by being the healthiest Carmyn that I could be! With every insulin shot, every prick of my finger, I became more and more determined to become healthy.
When my son was born, I did everything I told myself I would do. I exercised, ate healthy, and saw numbers on the scale that I hadn’t seen in a long time. However, 9 months postpartum I became pregnant with my second child. I felt that all my hard work was useless and there was no point of working out because I was just going to be big again. I started eating fast food everyday, not working out, and allowed the stress of having an almost one year old, going to college, working full-time while being pregnant to completely take over my emotions. I remember telling myself ‘Get in shape after the pregnancy and don’t worry about getting healthy or working out while pregnant.’
Nine months later, I was forced to have a c section due to my 10 pound baby. My stomach was completely ‘ruined’ and I felt that there was no way that I could ever get in shape. I prayed for God’s help with weight lose even though I felt completely hopeless. I prayed this over and over and over again. I tried to start working out, but then lose motivation after a couple days. I felt like I was starting over and over again with no progress. Because I kept relapsing, I decided to go get a wellness check at my doctor’s office to give me motivation.
A week after that visit, I received a big dose of reality. I had extremely high cholesterol for only being in my twenties! I had two months to get healthy or I would have to start taking a Statin for lowering cholesterol. Crying in the car after that visit I remembered depression while also thinking of my children. ‘I don’t want to die young because I am unhealthy with high cholesterol. I don’t want to allow depression and stress take over my health and my life.’ At that moment, I prayed to God to help me lose weight one more time. Then, I did something different – I listened! (That’s something that most people, including me, forget to do- they pray to God for help but they don’t take time to listen for Him)
God immediately quickened my heart to the song “Voice of Truth” by Casting Crowns that says:
“But the waves are calling out my name and they laugh at me
Reminding me of all the times I’ve tried before and failed”
But the voice of truth tells me a different story
And the voice of truth says “Do not be afraid!”
And the voice of truth says “This is for My glory!”
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth”
What was I thinking?? Of course I could do this and do it for His glory. God put the power inside of me to change my circumstance. When I got home, I laced up my running shoes and I haven’t looked back since. I thank God every single day for giving me the power to change my life and for Him being my voice of truth. I also thank God for allowing Morgan Stuck to be in my life and her #RunForBilly campaign. Her and her grandfather have inspired me so much during my runs and they motivate me to never stop even when it’s hurting.
It has been 5 weeks since I let depression, stress, anxiety, and the old me die. I am 15 pounds lighter, a shirt size smaller, 10 pants sizes smaller, 100% happier, healthier, and confident because of God’s character- Love. And as a bi-product, my children are getting to observe this beautiful new lifestyle while learning to lean on God’s broad shoulders!
My motivation comes from the Lord, however if that’s not your style my advice is to just tap into whatever you need to so that you can become the best YOU there is and encourage others around you to do the same!
Child of God. Indiana University graduate, economics Major. Culver’s manager. Mother of 2. Wife.